December 29, 2007

scared

My oncologist called me into the office last week to discuse my blood test results. She told me that my T-cells were scattered and off the charts????? She sent me for a sonogram of the breasts and a dexa (bone scan).

I went to have the tests done on the 27th. The radiologist came into the room after viewing the sonogram and told me he was concerned about what he viewed on it...and needed a new mamogram to further investigate.

I have had more my fair share of tests in the past 5 years and never has the radiologist came into the room! Im freaking out!

I wont get any results from my oncologist until january 2nd or 3rd....waiting is killing me inside!

The worst thing that could happen is the chemo and radiation therapies didnt work and it matastisized. Im so scared!

As far as the Chiari goes, my NS has started me on nuerotine until we can come up with the money for the nerve stimulator to be put in. I am still getting severe migraines and my memory loss seems to be increasingly worse! Im beyond frustrated at this point!

well thanks for letting me vent as always! :)

December 17, 2007

My disability hearing ....

I have been fighting for my disability for nearly 5 years now. They kept deneying me saying "your too young and you have a college education" I guess people who have and education and are under the age of 70 cant be possibly sick enough to not be able to work....are you kidding me??

I hired an attorney about a year and a half ago and we filed to go in front of the appeals judge. That was 19 months ago. We finnaly have a date!!!!

January 30th @ 1:30pm

I am so nervous that I want to puke! If I dont get it....I am going to be in a world of hurt! Everything is ridding on the judges decision and so is my happiness cause if I end up having to go to work, I fear it will be bad enough to kill me. I tried working for a couple of weeks and ended up in the hospital for nearly 3 weeks! I truely cannot work without it harming me...so what do I do if the judge denies my appeal???

Im trying to think positively but I want to be realistic as well!

Crossing my fingers and praying here in Wichita........shay